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Perfume for No One

When we moved to this house, the outdoor space excited us the most, and we were constantly there. It was a first for us, and a luxury where we live. The garden provided an escape that I never had before: the illusion of leaving something behind.

Like everything in life, the novelty of the garden wore off. The gardeners we hired often spent more time there than we did. Perpetually manicured, it remained beautiful, but undisturbed and underappreciated.

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Patient Identification

As a family doc myself, I sought care with a family physician for my family and myself. We’d moved to a major metropolitan area, and I chose a family medicine group affiliated with a small hospital in the city, the same group and hospital who’d attended me for my first childbirth. The hospital’s historic mission was to care for poor patients, many of whom were recent immigrants.

In my new, more affluent urban neighborhood, I joined a support group of new mothers. We were all white and all but me were planning to give birth at “name brand” tertiary medical

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The Brown Girl

I was 25 years old when I started my internship. My heart palpitated on my first day, as I made rounds on a long patient list. I was dressed in a long skirt and blouse under my white coat. My raven hair, brown eyes, and Indian accent made me stand out.

All my patients were cooperative and my day was going well—until I got to my last patient.

Mrs. S was a frail lady with tightly permed silver hair. Peeking out from under her covers, she took one look at me and asked in a Southern accent, “Who said you

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A First Trip to the Doctor

For one year in the mid-1980s, I was the concert manager in a music department at a major university. A friend of mine who taught there had called me in a panic when their concert manager quit in the middle of the school year. The university had 10 performing ensembles and about 15 different concert venues spread all over the metropolitan area of the city.

The job was impossible, and it came with zero support staff. Out of desperation, I talked the department chair into assigning me a couple of graduate assistants. Chi Shing and Li Ching showed up right

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Learning the Language

In college, my friend used to joke that my roommates and I were like the United Nations. One was Russian and born in Canada, another was Indian, and another was half Vietnamese and half Caucasian. I’m Chinese. We were sitting in our living room one evening, and I was desperately trying to teach them, “你好, 我的名字是” or “Hello my name is.” I couldn’t help but laugh at their distorted intonations and jumbled order. Until it was my turn to stumble through Russian: “привет меня зовут Emily.” Attempt Hindi: “मेरा नाम Emily है.” And then Vietnamese: “Xin chào, tên tôi là

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What I Carry

Inked onto my left shoulder is a pomegranate, its seeds cracked open and spilling out. Another one sits, just as defiantly, on the wall adjacent to my desk. It’s a gift from my girlfriend, who painted it herself.

It’s the national fruit of Iran. Oh, and also a super fruit, an antioxidant, if we’re adding a healthcare twist. For me, it’s a way of carrying a piece of home, and a reminder of how I’ve built a new home over the years.

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We Are the Ones We Are Waiting For

Practically every doctor, nurse, medical assistant and caregiver that my family ever had are immigrants. They, or their parents, immigrated to the United States for “a better life.” If it were not for these health care workers and care providers, I don’t know if I would be here today.

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Seams

Something I learned as a camp counselor is that striking up a conversation with a kid is like striking a match. With my camper Lily, I roamed around in the dark at first, grasping at Disney princesses, sports, books, best friends, and favorite animals. Then she said she was the fastest, faster than her older brother, and the sparks didn’t take long to fly. Soon we were flashing through the dining hall to the music room and then to archery and arts and crafts. I think if she had a motto, it would be “Why walk when you can run?”

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The Welcome Mat

Although my paternal grandma was born in 1895 in a small town outside of Pittsburgh, my other three grandparents were immigrants—two from Russia and one from Romania. My dad’s father died in the 1918 flu pandemic, thereby playing a minor role in my family’s history.

My mother’s parents, however, affected generations to come. They never shed their immigrant status; they failed to learn English, relying instead on Yiddish, and, due to Zayde’s job as a peddler, never climbed the socioeconomic ladder. Most of all, they deprived their three daughters of an education, believing that only their son deserved a chance

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