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The Couple Next Door

Kelly McCutcheon Adams

In 2005, my husband and I bought a small farmhouse in northern New England next door to Tom and Sally.

They were in their early seventies, married nearly fifty years, with a large family. Tom’s grandfather had built a farmhouse in 1900 on the family’s small pig farm. In the 1970s, Tom and Sally had parceled off the land and built a modern house for themselves, a stone’s throw from the old farmhouse that eventually became ours.

Tom and Sally have been great neighbors–private people, and the salt of the earth. In winter, they’d snowblow our driveway, despite being our seniors by thirty years. Once, years back, when our dog was gnawing a frozen squirrel and I was freaking out, Tom calmly took the squirrel away by making a game of it (the “squirrelcicle incident,” as it’s know in our household). On Halloween, our kids would trick-or-treat at their house first; at Christmas, they’d make Tom and Sally peppermint bark, and we would bring it over and admire their ceramic Christmas village, laid out on card tables.

These were the only times we would visit their home. Our other conversations were reserved for the driveway, where we’d meet when gathering the mail, raking the leaves or putting out the recycling bins. We were grateful to have such good neighbors who watched out for us.

A year ago, Tom was diagnosed with lung cancer. In our driveway conversations, Sally revealed that the cancer was spreading. And she made it clear that Tom wished to avoid ending up in the hospital.

“Daddy wants to die at home,” she said. “If he can go sit in the garden and take his walks, then we’re good.”

Having worked as a medical social worker in hospice and inpatient settings, I know how well hospice does at helping patients like Tom to stay out of the hospital, and so I often broached the idea of hospice care with Sally.

Her response was always the same: “We had that for Tom’s mom, but he’s not ready.”

As the months went by, with no hospice involvement, I gingerly approached Sally about getting Tom a MOLST form so that his wish not to be intubated or resuscitated would be respected. (MOLST, short for Medical Orders for Life-Sustaining Treatment, is a document used to facilitate end-of-life medical decision-making; it’s effective from home to ambulance to hospital.)

She listened and said she would talk with him about it. A few days later, she knocked on our door and asked, “Can you print me one of those forms? I talked with Tom’s doctor, and he said he’d sign it.”

A few weeks later, an ambulance drove down our short, dead-end road and into their driveway.

“Damn, he has a MOLST,” I said cryptically to my husband, then ran out the door.

“He has a MOLST!” I hollered to the emergency medical technician standing in the driveway. Memories crowded my mind: a hospice patient who’d died in the hospital, rather than at home, because a caregiver had panicked and called 911; the many intubated ICU patients who had slid down the slippery slope of interventions.

Sally let me into the house. The lead EMT held Tom’s MOLST in his hands and, thankfully, knew very well what it meant.

Tom’s lungs were filling with fluid, and he was struggling to breathe–a situation that both he and Sally found unbearable. In addition to the cancer, Tom had congestive heart failure and chronic obstructive pulmonary disease; from conversations with his doctors, Sally feared that he might choke to death.

Unfortunately, since hospice wasn’t yet involved in Tom’s care, there were no medicines in the house to ease his symptoms. Tom and Sally agreed that he should go to the hospital, and the lead EMT promised to respect Tom’s MOLST and get it into the right hands.

I realized that he was holding the original; there were no copies. For fear that the form would get lost at the hospital, I took it to our house, and my husband cranked it through our little home-office copier while they loaded Tom into the ambulance.

Two days later, Sally came to tell us that he was home and under hospice care.

“They brought a box of medicines that I can use to help him, so he can stay home,” she said. “He took a shower and shaved and says he feels better. I hope he doesn’t choke; that’s the thing I worry about. The doctors don’t think Daddy will make it through the winter.”

A few days later, on a Sunday at 7:00 am, when my kids and I were still in our pajamas, Sally knocked on the door. She was crying.

“I think Daddy is gone, but I’m wondering if you could check,” she said.

I woke my husband, put a sweater on over my pajamas and followed her.

I’m a social worker, not a doctor, so I can’t officially pronounce someone dead. But I have seen what seems like hundreds of people near, at and after their deaths. I knew I could bear that part, and I hoped that Tom’s condition would be obvious.

It was. His face was drawn. His skin was cool. He had no pulse.

“I agree with you. I think he has died,” I told Sally. “I think it would be a good idea to call hospice.”

Standing next to the bed, we hugged briefly, and Sally cried.

“I prayed so much that he wouldn’t struggle, and he did not,” she said. “He didn’t want the kids to come after Friday night. I just laid in bed, and we held hands before he went.”

I realized that I had been invited into the midst of something incredibly intimate. Tom would be at the funeral home by the time his children arrived from around the state.

As I felt his wrist, miming everything I could remember from watching my colleagues and from Hollywood, I wondered if Tom and I had ever touched before. Perhaps we’d shaken hands when my husband and I moved in?

Sally and I hugged some more (had we ever touched before this day?) and she said, “I just want to sit with him a little bit more before I call the hospice and the funeral home and the kids.”

I went home to my husband and children and cried as I talked with them about our kind neighbor’s death.

When I checked back with Sally later that day, the hospice nurse, the funeral home and the family members had come and gone, and she said, “I’m waiting for my friend Molly to come. We’re going to have a few beers together.”

Tom had the elusive good death. He was home, with the woman he loved, in the house they’d built together. His medical treatment had been driven by his wishes, and these were respected by everyone involved. He and Sally had the right resources at the right time, with a sympathetic and supportive physician, a MOLST form that made Tom’s wishes clear, hospice care (although in my view this could have started sooner), and the good fortune to be spared the choking they had feared.

As I have reflected on this death and this intimacy, I have imagined that this is what it used to be like with neighbors–present for one another in birth and in death, not just for the squirrelcicles and Halloween costumes.

And although we all have a strong enough dose of New England reserve not to be overly involved in each other’s lives, it turned out, in the end, that we were close enough.

About the author:

Kelly McCutcheon Adams is a director at the Institute for Healthcare Improvement (IHI) in Cambridge, Massachusetts. She is currently directing IHI’s Conversation Ready initiative, which helps healthcare organizations to be ready to receive, record and respect patients’ wishes for end-of-life care. Kelly is also a clinical social worker with experience in emergency department, intensive-care unit, subacute rehabilitation, nursing home and hospice settings. “I have been an avid journal keeper since high school and have been enjoying forays into sharing my writing.”

Story editor:

Diane Guernsey


12 thoughts on “The Couple Next Door”

  1. Kelly, thank you for sharing this. I have limited time or would leave a longer comment. When my mother in law had an aortic dissection in November 2013, having the 5 Wishes document IN HAND proved invaluable in an evening that involved transfers and a lot of difficult conversations. But there was no doubt what she wanted, which was a godsend.

  2. Thank you for sharing Kelly. Very well told. This story is truly an inspiration, but mostly to me because it seems so realistic. It wasn’t perfect planning by any means – plenty of room for improvement. Thankfully Tom and Sally were fortunate, largely for having you as a neighbor! Keep up the great work.

  3. What a lovely and positive experience. As a nurse and a supporter of dignity in life and death this was a great experience. Thank you for sharing and doing the great work that you and the organization are doing. One event at a time will move us closer to the goal. Thanks you for sharing and caring in such a grand way.

  4. Kel- Thank you for writing such a wonderful and touching piece and for sharing it with us. Its strange that most of us don’t think about our own end of life wishes or those of our loved ones. Your story serves as an important reminder . . . a very loving and selfless reminder. xxoo

  5. Karen Donley-Hayes

    What a lovely essay – and a lovely experience. That may sound strange, but I mean lovely in the ways you pointed out – that his wishes were honored, that he was with his loved one, that he didn’t seem to suffer too much. It’s also a lovely thing you were able to be there in that capacity for your neighbors. We should all be so lucky.

  6. Many thanks for these very kind and wise words. I have appreciated the opportunity to share this story. – Kelly McCutcheon Adams

  7. Beautifully written- which is not surprising considering the author.
    It will be a great leap from our present, messy health care system when this kind of story is NOT needed! More MOLST, more hospice, more wqidespread use New England practicality in the acceptance of death. Thanks for the lovely protrayal of a good exit.

  8. Hey Kelly, enjoyed the story but I must say the last paragraph was magical, an evidence of you being more than just a writer. You are a real person. Thanks again for sharing.

  9. This is what we want for ourselves, our loved ones, and our patients. Much more education is needed to explain just what a peaceful passing can be like, as there is still so much confusion and misunderstanding out there. Thank you for sharing this.

  10. Margaret Fleming

    This is exceptionally good, and gives me reason to hope. From time to time I’ve said that after a certain age, one worries less about death and more about what we must go through here at the end.

    I’m feeling more optimistic now, and I need to save this for information on possibilities.

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