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In 1983, the community hospital where I worked did not yet use the acronym AIDS. We used another one--FUO, for fever of unknown origin--which was emblazoned in marker on a red card on the doorjambs of certain private rooms. These rooms each had an anteroom with a sink and a hamper. This is where the donning and removal of protective suits took place. In this 4-foot-by-6-foot space between the hall and the patient's room, the garbage cans bore biohazard symbols, and the red bags inside them were doubled and then encased in a third, clear garbage bag--to protect us, we were told. 

For those who entered the rooms, the signs and procedures were intended to signal that these patients' blood and body fluids were toxic. But they did more than send a signal--they blared and bellowed these patients' status. They implied that their body fluids might leap with agency into another's body, like a raptor seeking its prey. Even if we entered one of those rooms only to take a patient’s blood pressure, we were required, without exception, to put on a white plastic space suit, shoe covers, a mask, goggles, a cap and slippers, like astronauts preparing to navigate this otherworld inhabited by patients with a mystery disease, which would in two years’ time be known as AIDS. 

Even then, in the early years of my work as a nurse (I was barely twenty), I believed that this was a mistake, that those of us who did (or did not) enter these rooms were complicit in these patients' suffering. I wondered why on this earth, in this hospital, within this healing space, no one saw our living theater of shame.

Mary J. Mahoney
Elmira, New York

 

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# Nancy Brewer 2017-08-24 17:41
I loved this piece. I had the harrowing experience of working in a busy teaching hospital in 1981-83, during which time I was responsible for doing cardiac outputs on MICU patients. This was before the medical community understood what AIDS was. No precautions or isolation then, and so many outputs and blood gases as we did everything to save them from the ARDS that claimed their lives. I can remember neither myself or my partner could get breaks, these people were so ill. We would sit with them and hold their hand and talk to them, crying as they died, our medicine powerless to stop the ravages of the virus. It was a terrible time then and the aftermath. Thank you for harkening us to remember. Too many died in our practice of medicine.
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# Susan Heideman 2016-09-28 17:12
Thank you Mary...I recall my own thoughts during that time...your voice spoke for me too...my sense of shame..and how it seemed I was somehow complicit. .for how wrong it all felt.
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