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Every month More Voices invites readers to contribute short nonfiction prose pieces of 40 to 400 words on a healthcare theme.

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“Your ovaries never developed.”

I am trying—and failing—to wrap my mind around those four words, to grasp the weight of their meaning, but every time I try to speak or swallow, the sharpness of the word “never” lodges in my throat. Never, meaning never counting the number of fingers on an ultrasound, never feeling the flutter of little toes against your abdomen, never arguing about whether you prefer the name Sophie or Sophia, never wondering if your baby girl will recognize your voice when you get to hold her for the first time.

There are other options. Other options, meaning you can still have children, and you can still have all of these moments, but not with a child that shares your genetic makeup. Not with a child that shares your messy hair and ocean blue eyes. Not with a child that looks up at you with a wide-mouthed grin that is a reflection of your own. You can still have all of these moments, but your friends will never come up to you at holiday parties declaring that your daughter is your spitting image. People will never tell her that she is growing up to look just like her mother.

“Your ovaries never developed.” I am trying—and failing—to wrap my mind around these four words, to grasp the weight of their meaning for the teenage girl who sits before me, sharing her story with me.

“Your ovaries never developed. That’s what the doctor told me,” she says, and I am struck by the acceptance in her voice, by the stoicism that blankets her face. I, the medical student, struggle to come to terms with the realization of what she already knows at such a young age. Yet, she has already moved on to talk about her dream of becoming an orthopedic surgeon and traveling to other countries to treat patients. I marvel at her resilience as I continue listening to her story, to the wisdom woven through her words, to the determination embedded in her voice. 

Margot Gardin
New York, New York

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# Jenni Levy 2017-01-18 15:18
I love this piece. It so clearly seems to be you in the beginning because you are so empathic, and also respectful of the patient.
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# Warren Holleman 2017-01-21 17:17
Jenni- You're so right! This story is a case study in empathy. And an excellent way to teach empathy to other students and care-givers, because it details not just one but a whole host of things this young patient might have been thinking. It encourages me to know that there are future physicians and health professionals who try this hard to understand what it must be like to get a particular diagnosis or to live with a particular condition.
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# Margot Gardin 2017-01-22 18:13
Thank you both for your kind words! I was hoping that the format of the piece would allow the reader to join me as I grappled with how it might feel to receive such sensitive, permanent news. I'm so happy to hear that it was effective.
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